I just feel so fucking alone lately. I know it's one of those transitional years for me, as I'm a senior in high school. But it's hard for me to not to feel alienated by those around me. My friends are always busy, and I feel like I'm just sitting at home, on the verge of an emotional breakdown due to being overwhelmed by all of the school work I have to do, and haven't done. I have been insecure about myself for almost as long as I can remember. I feel so inadequate, so ready for this time in my life to be over. I hate high school, and I'm not really able to handle it anymore. I've stressed out too much, I've put in so much effort, all for it to feel utterly meaningless. I sit on the computer, behind a screen, and pretend like I don't feel so alone...but I do. Everything is drowning me. I don't want to suicide, not really. But at the same time, I wonder what is the point? I am afraid that I'll feel like all of this was wasted effort later down the line. Like, I might as well die now, because the stress will be ever present. And I can't handle that pressure. I'm really glad for this forum, though. It's helped me through a lot, even though I don't frequent it that often. But every once in a while...I feel like this.