So I went in to the clinic after work yesterday to be treated for my sinus infection. The nurse took my blood pressure (standard routine stuff when you are treated by a doc). My blood pressure was 150ish over 105ish!!!!! The nurse checked the other arm and it was 160ish over 105ish!!!!! And then when the Doc was finishing my exam, she rechecked the Bp and it was down to 140ish over 100ish, but still very high for me. The last time I was seen for an illness by my Doc before my wife left me, my Blood pressure was high then too. Around 150ish then. At that time the Doc chalked it up to some increased weight gain, stress etc. Told me at the time to go caffeine free on all my drinks. Prior to that, my blood pressure has always been fine. There has never been a history of high blood pressure in my family. My brother in law had high blood pressure and died of a massive heart attack when he was 40!!! I am 42!!!!!!! Now...since Sept 08 when my wife left me, and my life started spiraling out of control as I went on my self inflicting rampage to try and destroy myself, the last thing in my mind, (if it was even there at all) was my blood pressure. Looks like all the pills I took and all the booze I drank and all the cigarettes I smoke have taken it's toll. The doc stated she wanted me to do a follow up with my primary doc in 2 weeks. Now I just need to find a doc. I kind of feel like I am a ticking time bomb. I feel that at any moment now, I could drop dead. it is very scary.