:wink:Hi, I'm a girl from Holland, you may think why a American page if youre Dutch.
Thats because I've been to all most all dutch suicide pages and none of them could help me. I'm 13 almost 14, and it's now a year that I cut myself. I do it because I don't wanna cry, that may sounds stupid to you but it's because I'm sexally abused by my male cousin and my brother, my parents know it from my cousin, but they don't know it from my brother. But I don't want to cry because I don't want to show weakness, because thats what got me here in the first place. I have al lot of friends how want to comit suicide so they can't realy help me, I'm the one how helps them all the time. It's hard to live an aother day every day again, my father have cancer that makes it even harder, because I don't want to upsad my parents. I never really could talk with them so it isn't an opsion to talk with thme about it. I can't take it any longer. Every night wake up from nightmares every night be afraid, every night when I'm alone and sad like almost always cut myself. I can't take it any longer. People how know it will first help me and make me feel better but then they will just make it even 100 ties worst. I wanna die, but I'm to afraid that it won't work, and I'm to afraid that people will be sad because of my death. I know it's al long story but you got to know every thing so that you may help me or understand me. Now I'm slowly dying myself because I eat just a little and if it's possible I will trough it out (I don't know how you must say that). I don't know what I must do with myself and I'm thinking now what are you doing stupid bitch?!, Because I hate myself really much. How understands me? Or how can help me?
Please or I will possibly die:sad:
If you want to talk with me more private then you can add me to msn : [email protected] I hope someone knows what to do.
-xXx- Izzie
Thats because I've been to all most all dutch suicide pages and none of them could help me. I'm 13 almost 14, and it's now a year that I cut myself. I do it because I don't wanna cry, that may sounds stupid to you but it's because I'm sexally abused by my male cousin and my brother, my parents know it from my cousin, but they don't know it from my brother. But I don't want to cry because I don't want to show weakness, because thats what got me here in the first place. I have al lot of friends how want to comit suicide so they can't realy help me, I'm the one how helps them all the time. It's hard to live an aother day every day again, my father have cancer that makes it even harder, because I don't want to upsad my parents. I never really could talk with them so it isn't an opsion to talk with thme about it. I can't take it any longer. Every night wake up from nightmares every night be afraid, every night when I'm alone and sad like almost always cut myself. I can't take it any longer. People how know it will first help me and make me feel better but then they will just make it even 100 ties worst. I wanna die, but I'm to afraid that it won't work, and I'm to afraid that people will be sad because of my death. I know it's al long story but you got to know every thing so that you may help me or understand me. Now I'm slowly dying myself because I eat just a little and if it's possible I will trough it out (I don't know how you must say that). I don't know what I must do with myself and I'm thinking now what are you doing stupid bitch?!, Because I hate myself really much. How understands me? Or how can help me?
Please or I will possibly die:sad:
If you want to talk with me more private then you can add me to msn : [email protected] I hope someone knows what to do.
-xXx- Izzie
