For a few weeks now I've been feeling alone, and depressed and unimportant, ugly, fat, everything. I've self harmed, tried to starve myself (and failed). I've had suicidal thoughts but I don't think I'd bet go through with it. I don't know what to do. I've tried to talk to people about it, and they don't understand because they're all so happy. Then afterwards I feel worse because I feel like I'm being attention seeking, even though that's not at all how I intended it to be. I tried to tell my best friend I thought I was getting depressed and she said that I'll be okay. But I took a quiz online to see if I was showing signs of depression and it said I was. When I told her that she said ' no ur not' so I pretended I was joking because there was no other way of dealing with the neglect shed just gave me. And the only other person I know who would in any way understand what I'm going through doesn't feel like this anymore, so now I'm on my own again. I can't tell my parents because they would never understand, honestly, they wouldn't. I'd get called a drama queen or something, so I came here because I thought that it'd just be between people who know what it's like. I am 100% here for all of you, but please, can at least one of you tell me what to do, because I've completely lost myself.