I gradate high school in May and I plan to go to college to be a psychologist... But how weird a psychologist who cuts herself.. what a hypocrite I would be. Am I too fucked up to be one sometimes I wonder. Yet once I asked a psychologist if a recovered cutter could be a psychologist and he said yes and that they make good ones because they have insight. He said that without knowing about my cutting or anything. I know he wasn't saying it just to make me happy. I read a memoir about a psychologist who was sent to a mental hospital as a kid. She cut herself too and she stopped and went on to be a psychologist. I haven't stopped cutting yet and I don't know if I can. I've been though a lot of crap and I just don't know any more if this is a realistic dream. There's nothing else I want to do with my life though. I want to help others like myself. I know I could get though all the school I get good grades. Yet a psychologist who cuts? how ironic and odd. Isn't a psychologist supposed to be strong and emotionally stable? I've been thinking about seeing a psychologist once I get out of college and have a good job. I don't want to now because then my parents would know something was up. A psychologist who sees a psychologist isn't that even weirder? Yet the psychologist I saw before went to a psychologist. I read a memoir about a psychologist who was bipolar and who saw a psychiatrist.