I don't know what to do, i'm feeling suicidal right now but I am unable to say anything because I will be locked up again and if I say anything to my parents they will be very upset again like before and feel that they aren't being supportive enough .. nor does my mother need another stroke from stress. I've been on anti-depressants for 10 months now, they helped a little but now I realise they only numbed the suicidal feelings but didn't get rid of them. I am still without friends or a girlfriend at 21 years of age so i have no one to talk to. I've basically tried everything, I tried medication, I exercise everyday, I tried making friends with people but they aren't interested. I care about my parents deeply after all they have done for me but I don't want to hurt them by doing this, i'm not sure i'll see Monday - the anxiety of going back to work is crushing.