I don't know if I can keep this up anymore. My daughter and husband are down stairs with the rest of the family having dinner. I can't stand that many people being around or the noise. So I have been sitting up in our room for the night since about 3. I am tired of it all. I am tired of trying, I am tired of telling myself just one more day. We are living with my inlaws because I can't hold down a job. My medications don't seem to be helping. I am tired of crying all the time. I have all my medications sitting in front of me trying to figure out a way just to hold on one more day. I can't seem to come up with a reason. I hate the holidays. I hate my life. I can't figure out how to keep going on. I just want it all to stop.