I feel so lost. I dont know what im feeling anymore. If im feeling anything at all. I dont know. All I know is that i want this to stop. That I am going to kill myself soon. But theres no emotion attached I dont care Im not scared Im not anything I just dont understand how i could have planned my death so well, and no feel anything. it makes me question whether there really is anthing wrong with me. That maybe im making this all up..