Hey guys. I feel so stupid. writing to a buncha strangers, most of which will never see this....how on earth did i get to this point? I know this forum is for suicidal people, and i dont know what possessed me to search this in google. am i really suicidal? its so weird to apply a word as strong as that too me. i mean yes, my life isn't all puppies and rainbows right now, but suicide? could i really do it?....the scariest part it, i think i could. i mean, i think about it a lot. not committing suicide, but just dying in general. how i would do it. would i write a note? what would it say? what would people think?...would anyone care?....ive made plans and drawings and wrote songs, but ive never seriously considered going through with it. until today. So, now what?