My name is Bill. I am 42 yrs old. I was very suicidal late last fall, even made an attempt. After getting treatment (Spent a week in the hospital) and felt better for a short while. Then I decided I would wait until after the holidays and take care of it then. Well it is after the holidays....and I am utterly all alone. I now know that my wife soon to be exwife is dead serious on this divorce and there is really now no chance of us getting back together. I told my Doc's my Therapists, the people in the hospital, all the pro's I have seen, I have told my friends, and my family and even her, and yet no one is listening. So I am going to say this one last time.....I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER!!!!!!!!!!! Even if I could, I can't. Not after 20 years. It's really simple now. She wont take me back, and I cant live without her. Seems like I now know what to do. All I have to do is buy some booze and this thing at the local store. I will be unconsious within a minute and dead within 5 mins. I think next week I am going shopping.