I live alone with my dad. I'm trying to move out and go to college, I want to get out of this fucking house, but I can't get a job and he refuses to help me with buying a car or getting an apartment. My father is a narcissist. He thinks he's better than everyone, smarter, more talented, that everyone is his inferior. He puts himself before everyone else because he thinks he deserves it. He blames me and my siblings for his failures because he had to "give up his dreams to raise us." He treats me like complete shit. Mostly because I'm a girl, and he's a chauvanist. He thinks that because he's my father I belong to him and I have to do everything he says. He's constantly putting me down, making me feel bad about myself, making me feel guilty. He'll make me cry and then go sit down and watch TV like he didn't do anything wrong because he thinks he has the right to do it. He's trying to get me out of the house so "he can live his own life," and I'm trying, but no one is hiring, what am I supposed to do without money? And then he goes and calls me lazy and worthless. I just want to scream, I'm close to snapping.