I hate that I have this, they tell me I've got DID, they tell me I have a severe personaility disorder, they tell me I have BPD...All i know is that I don't feel human, I do things I wouldn't normally do, I lose time, ppl say i talk differently and can act sometimes violent, sometimes childish, sometimes shy, sometimes this, sometimes that. I don't know who I am. tonight I'm scared, scared that I will kill myself tonight. Scared cause i don't know who I am, I don't understand what others would say is simple to understand, I don't understand or know how to deal with everyday life. Yeah I'm messed up, and people hate me cause there never know how I will be or will react. I don't feel safe around me and i don't know how to cope.