I am not sure what to do. Can anyone offer some advice? Maybe some coping strategies, ideas, anything. I feel I am really at the end of my rope right now. I can't even believe I am doing this, but I don't know where else to turn. I have been trying so hard for so long to just grit my teeth and push on through, but I just can't anymore. It doesn't seem to make any difference anyway. Horrible things keep happening and I am just so exhausted and scared and stuck. My life 2 years ago was great. And then, one thing after another, it all just fell apart and there was nothing I could do to stop any of it. First my parents both got sick, then my mom died of cancer and my dad was placed in a nursing home due to dementia. He doesn't know who I am anymore. My marriage broke down and my spouse left me. I moved in to my own place and one week later I get laid-off from work. Absolutely everything has changed in my life in a matter of just a few months. I feel gutted and hurt and alone. I feel like I had everything and now I have nothing at all. I feel like a failure and I am so scared all the time. I don't trust anybody. I can't sleep at night, but I am too tired to drag myself out of bed in the morning. I miss my spouse so much, but I am so hurt and resentful because of what happened and I cannot trust them anymore. I am at a loss. I am trying to look for work, but I am so overwhelmed. I am at the point where I feel like just giving up. I miss my family. I want my old life back. When I do sleep, I often dream that all the bad stuff was just a bad dream and everything is back to normal and I feel so relieved and grateful, but then I wake up to my reality and it feels so awful to realize that my nightmare is actually my day to day life. These moments are the worst and I end up wishing I just wouldn't wake up at all. Every day, I say to myself, come on - just one more day - you can do it. So I do. I breath in and out and put one foot in front of the other and do the best I can. But, surely to God, we are not meant to carry this much pain in our hearts, are we? It seems inhuman. Impossible. I feel I could burst at the seams. I know the past is gone and I have to let things go, but I just can't seem to get my bearings - it is just too much. I am sorry to sound so negative, I am just wondering if anybody has any ideas or suggestions of what I can do to help myself feel better? I feel so close to giving up. Thanks for reading.