I have been depressed before and have even posted on this board before. I don't know how far we can be pushed before we break. I thoght I was going to break some time ago but was stronger then I thought. Now I think I may have reached that breaking point. My father died 8/31 and yesterday I was told my grandfather has less the a week to live. I am vomiting it hurts so much. That does not even begin to describe all my self destructive acts (my spelling sucks). Life can really hit us hard when it wants to get rid of us.