First off, I don't think I am suicidal, I just have the thoughts and want them to stop. Five days ago, my wife of 12 years told me she isn't sure about what she wants anymore and is considering leaving me. This blindsided me so much that I am still reeling. I am so madly in love with her and the thought of being without my best friend is too much to bear. She is my rock, mysoulmate and my everything. I have no other real issues. Work is stressful, but I am a Police Officer, so it's kinda to be expected. I have a son, who I love with all my heart. He is why I am here. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I just don't know how to stop having these thoughts. I just want this horrible pain to end. It's more than I am set up to handle. How can I make it stop?