I know this sounds silly but it's affecting me quite badly. My dad was murdered just over 3 years ago, the people were never caught and I still live in the same city, in fact I go to that specific part of the city every week and I'm within a 5 minute walk of the area he died, and I sometimes see his flat which he used to live in. (I never lived in that place as he died as his girlfriends house) Anyways, he died from a single stab wound. I was bored the other day so I was reading stuff online and came across a story about a man who almost killed this teenage girl with a knife(Not even a real story and has no description) For some reason when I went to bed that night I started hysterically crying and had to put the lamp on, and I was too terrified to even get out of bed. I kept hearing noises downstairs and I started to get really paranoid and I genuinely believed the people who killed my dad were outside my room. I know the chances of anyone getting up 3 flights of stairs without my uncle (with very good hearing) and I hearing is extremely low, especially since we've got several bolts on each door and we've got secured wire fence around the garden. I'd like to say in general I'm not a wuss, I've read and watched far far worse and I've never once even been slightly afraid, and I've never been afraid of the dark even as a child. I've been in situations that I've had to react quickly and be calm. I've always handled well in a emergency even when I've been the only one around and I've had someone bleeding to death in front of me. So I don't know why a story that wasn't even descriptive has caused me this paranoia. I know logically that in a city this size the chance of me walking past the murderers are low, and it's much much lower that they'll even know who I am... I just can't get it out of my head and I keep believing that I'm being watched or someone is waiting for me. I'm a crying, exhausted mess and in day light I'm not as bad and I think I'm being a total wuss, but when it starts getting dark I end up sitting up at night stressed out of my mind. I'm sorry to put this here as technically I'm not suicidal, I'm just extremely exhausted and stressed and the lack of food and sleep has caused me to have a really rough day at school and I'm feeling pretty low. I just don't know who to mention this to as I know most people will think I'm a wimp and I know they'll just tell me to think logically and I really am trying... It's just stuck in my head. It's currently midnight and I have a bright lamp on but I know I'll have to sleep soon and I'm not far from crying with fear. I'm not allowed any pets nor am I allowed any type of object that can cause significant harm (Bat-Plank of wood, knife, etc) and I've been told if there is a burgulary I'll likely have a lot of time (3-4th floor) to barricade myself in, and the doors and walls are quite thick and I have a storage room linked to my bedroom with a lot of heavy objects so I've got the safest room in the house. I've had these discussions before several times so I know what do do in an emergency and I've got the highest chance of survival/staying safe than anyone else in any other room., I just need to get past this paranoia but once the light goes off or I have to open my bedroom door the panic kicks in. Anyone got any advice? I apologise for the length, I just wanted to explain everything.