Last year, sept 2-3 I was raped. I have thought so often that I was better. I think I have lied to myself. I am in crisis. I am looking for a reason NOT TO end it all. Sadly the reasons have gone far from me. I think I want someone to encourage me to stick around. I know that seems stupid. I know how juvinile that sounds even fror a 17 year old. I am faceing a seconf=d round of court in order to get his crap to conclusion. I was so weak by the end of the first round and I wonder if a 2nd round is possible. I feel so weak, I am so drained.