Ever since my daughter died last year, I have wanted to join her and made a few attempts along the way. Have been seeing a workplace counsellor who has since left and now seeing no one from work. My sister in law is dying of cancer and has only weeks to live, I so wish I could trade places with her. She is very upset about dying. She is having blood transfusions at the moment to keep her alive. NOw she lives 1000km away from us and we both took time off work to travel to visit her. I have told my husband I don't mind if he stays while I travel back home, because I would like him to spend as much time with his sister as he can. But on the other hand I don't know if I trust myself to stay at home without doing anything silly. But I don't tell him this, as I am worried about him being worried about me. I also feel like saying to her to hello to my daughter for me, but I don't think that is the right thing to say at the moment, the doctors say it is only going to be weeks.