I keep having thoughts and urges to hurt myself. I will be walking along and for example a bus comes along. My brain just goes what if? And I've found it very hard to stop myself. When I was younger I tried several times to end my life, walking infront of a bus and walking down a motorway swaying myself infront of cars (I don't remember this was told after I came round in an ambluance) Quite a lot of stuff happened what made me feel like that and I thought I had got past that and moved on, but now these thoughts are coming back more frequently and stronger than before. I know I won't hurt myself because I always have this doubt which I stop and then am in floods of tears but I really don't know what to do. I've had counselling before it just made me feel worse as I delving and bringing everything up again.