I am so confused. I mean I have found out that I have multipal personaly disorder. I have also just relapsed after being clean for almost 5 months. I have just been so stressed to the max. I mean I have never been so over whellmbed with shit. I mean for about 5 or 6 years I have become my sisters mother. That is a major task to take on at the of 11 or 12. i basiclly take care of her. Besides putting a roof over her head. There have been many time when i was the bread winner in the family. I am now a senior in high school and I am being forested to go to collage by my mother becase she wants to still get child support or some kind of money from some where. I just want to leave. I mean I have been very bad in January. I have cut and it was really bad. I mean i probally should have gotten stiches after i had made the cut. I am seeing a counsaler. and I enjoy seeing her and everything. but there is still this feeling that I can not get rid of that i need to cut, i want to cut, i need feed(on blood).I dont want to cut but it has become such a habbit and such a need that i dont know what else to do. i mean I always need to have something that I can control and this is the only thing in my life i have ever been able to control. I am just so confused. I dont even know why I am posting on here. I guess you could say i am just in a mood to vent. but I am not in an angry mood. it is just a bla kind of mood. So no one really needs to post back. but you can if you want to.