I wanted to end it before my birthday...and I said I'd give it 3 more months. The day came and it passed, I didn't kill myself...because I figured the tides were turning. But I was stupid to think that, because that never will happen. I'm fine with this decision and I just wanted to let everyone know, so you won't have to wonder what happened to me. I know this is the right thing to do because no matter how much I wish for happiness, for my life to change, for something to get better...it never does and it never will. Sorry I've been so annoying while I've been here...I apologize for any wrong I might have done. Goodbye everyone and take care of yourselves.