I don't know where to begin or even start. I'm scared to be honest. I don't exactly have any sort of professional diagnosis. And I'd rather not research all my symptoms or issues because I'm afraid that it'll just get ingrain into myself. All I know for certain is that I've been feeling...more negative than usual. My sleeping patterns are even worse recently which is making fall apart faster than I can hold it together. Usually, I can cope with whatever I have by pushing down all memories and thoughts, but these past few months have been more stressful. Disappointing. Burdensome. Guilt-stained. Slowly slipping out of control. So that's why I'm here before I completely reach my breaking point. I don't know where else to turn to and I'm wary of trying out professional help for various factors. So this is me. :apthy: So this is my first post. I just want to hide under my blankie and never deal with the outside world/my life again. There's nothing I look forward to and nothing I want besides my own space/time alone.