Hi All, first post. Bit of background information - last year I was an unemployed alcoholic and was heading nowhere until I met the most amazing girl. She helped me get sorted and I managed to find a job. I also have a history of abusing recreational drugs (MDMA, cocaine, speed) although I was never dependant. Fast forward a year and I've lost it all. I'm still drinking (albeit not every day) and through my idiotic, abusive behaviour my girlfriend has finished me and I have lost the job. It culminated last night with us having a massive physical fight and me smashing up her furniture. I don't know what to do, I can feel myself spiralling out of control again and need to do something fast before its too late. I have been seeking help with the drinking and have been seeing a counsellor but I don't feel that it is working. I think my issues are more deep rooted than just drinking, it is almost as if I have a self destruct button that I press when things start looking good for me. HELP.