These past few weeks have taken all of the strength I had for life away. I should be happy. I just graduated from college and got to celebrate and see all of my family, but instead I am lower than ever. I have started doing drugs and smoking and getting drunk and hooking up with random guys and not being safe and I just don't know what I am doing or why I am doing it. I don't know what to do or where to go from here. I am simply lost and hurting and tired of life.