Is it nothing? Not.. "nothing bad," but the absence of feelings entirely? I believe that the state of depression comes first... Then the numbness. At least, for me. But this is nothing like how it was before. I can logically see that. It was so much worse. I couldn't function. I wasn't happy. I wasn't fine. Now it's different. I'm functioning... I'm just not happy. I want to die. Why do I want to die? I have no right to consider that. I got through so much worse with respect to feelings. Why?