i feel all empty... i don't feel pretty today. sometimes i do. actually i feel like complete shit today. i have for the past 5 days. and its not the exams that made me feel like this. i cut myself pretty much everyday this week. and pretty badly at one stage. i don't know how to be normal, i tried, holy god did i try. i want more than anything to be normal and perfect and pretty and slim and nice and friendly. i feel like an alien when i'm around everyone and you i just don't understand. why? i'm not worth it. i made myself vomit again today. 3rd day in a row. wonder if thats like..borderline bulimia? i feel depressed again too. i didn't feel this bad since...well since i don't know when. maybe that day. i dunno... i'm failing and to be honest i don't really care. like i said i'm not worth anyones help. i'm not feeling sorry for myself, i just don't understand why i'm such a fuck up of a person. i wish i was dead. give someone else a chance at life. i'm a waste of space.