I dont know what to do anymore.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by CassMargaret96, Jan 21, 2013.

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  1. CassMargaret96

    CassMargaret96 New Member

    When I wa 13 my father who I was very close to died, And I feel like it was my fault. I go to by boyfriend for help, but It isnt working. I feel myself goiing into deeper depression. Not being able to handle it. I find myself cutting , and taking a lot of pills, Then I just feel like I am not a good enough friend, daughter, girlfriend, what everone would feel happier without me here, that i am just a huge hassle. I also go to a full on prep highschool, and I am the only person (litterly) who is a heavy metal chick. Im 16, and have an eating disorder, I am 94 pounds. I dont eat. And I am not sure how much tlonger I can take. Tonight I took< edit mod total eclipse method> And about to cut myself. I dont know what to think. Im so confused, and I think everyone would be 100 times happier if I wasnt in their lifes anymore. That I have no one to go to anymore. I cant stand this anymore. Ive tried suicide already, needless to say the string broke, it wasnt strong enough, yrs it made me jump into reality, but that feeling is warring off. on weekends when im home. I drink. till I cant feel anything anymore... Im so lost.. help
     
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  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi hun sorry you are so low right now the thing to do hun is to talk ok talk to your councillors at your school talk to your doctor get some help to change how you see yourself how you feel. You are not a hassle hun you are in pain and with support hun in place you can heal Keep talking to us ok keep reaching out here You are not alone hun now Try not to drink ok it will only cause more problems hugs
     
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