I've struggled with the demon for years and have had clinical depression since childhood. As of late, I'm finding myself more and more alone. People who were my friends for years, have been slapping my hand away and no one seems to want me to be in their life anymore. I have few remaining relatives, and I'm in my early 40s with no foreseeable valid future. I'm unemployed, I have no driver's license, no car, and no money. No one wants anything at all to do with me. My heart aches, and I'm overwhelmed with hopelessness. I honestly, truly, do not have anything to live for. I don't hate myself, I just have nothing in life. I don't want to be alive in the morning, if I'm just going to feel like this day in and day out. I've had counseling, and I've been on numerous anti-depressants over the years, but none of it has helped. I think I'm at the end, with no further to go and no reason to even bother looking.