I found this site looking for a way to end it all painlessly.Then i saw how there is community for people teadering on the edge, like myself. I have had way to much happen to me this past year. it has not gotten any better. i been dealing with this severe depression for over a year now. I just want to be dead and being dead means no more pain. i have called the suicide hotline and been turned away twice as soon as they found out i have 2 daughters they acted like that was going to pull me through. my girls dont live with me and i am homeless got taken for a ride through the court system because she painted me like a monster and she played the victim card. I honestly dont know what to do with myself i cant stand feeling like this anymore.