I think the take home is that either they don't know how to handle your emotions, or they're straight up shitty friends. Just because the friends you have aren't helping you in an appropriate manner doesn't mean life is worthless, however! New friends are always there to be made, even though it may feel difficult, especially online. When I was feeling low, Discord helped me, finding people and new stuff to distract me from my thoughts.
I'm really sorry you're feeling this typa way tho. If you wanna talk, we're here to listen!