Seriously, I just give up. I just feel like I had that little moment of free time from being myself and I was someone else for a while, someone happy. But now that person's gone and i'm back to my old self and I can't be that way again, nobody liked her, least of all myself.
Alright, so there are some good things in my life. I've got a great boyfriend, great friends.....but they just don't matter anymore. I don't care if I never see them again. I don't care if I never see my family again. I just give up. Everything has once again become too hard for me and this time I don't think i'm going to be able to tolerate feeling like this.
I guess my next step is to go to the doctors, see what they can do. Probably nothing....if they offer me counselling I can't take it cos i've had it before and it doesn't help me, I find it hard to open up to people, i'm like a bottle full of broken glass that just keeps being re-filled and then gets it's lid put back on it. But I'm nearly full now, and theres nowhere for the broken glass to go, so the bottle's going to be broken to get everything out....if that makes sense.
Well thanks for reading
k_pressy
xxx
Alright, so there are some good things in my life. I've got a great boyfriend, great friends.....but they just don't matter anymore. I don't care if I never see them again. I don't care if I never see my family again. I just give up. Everything has once again become too hard for me and this time I don't think i'm going to be able to tolerate feeling like this.
I guess my next step is to go to the doctors, see what they can do. Probably nothing....if they offer me counselling I can't take it cos i've had it before and it doesn't help me, I find it hard to open up to people, i'm like a bottle full of broken glass that just keeps being re-filled and then gets it's lid put back on it. But I'm nearly full now, and theres nowhere for the broken glass to go, so the bottle's going to be broken to get everything out....if that makes sense.
Well thanks for reading
k_pressy
xxx