This can't be normal. Suicidal thoughts on a daily basis can't be normal. I haven't posted in this forum for a while, but I have been drowning in depression and constant thoughts of ending my life ever since. As a heads up I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder so I guess that starts my issues. I am a self harmer and while I have harmed a little lately, I am unable to do it because my husband checks me. Anyway, my point is that my mind is consumed with thoughts of killing myself. I think of how I am going to do it, when I am going to do it and it is always there as a backup in case things get to hard. When I drive down the road I think about driving my car off the highway. I had a bad therapy session and almost stepped out into traffic in front of her office. I have sat in my garage and <edit mod total eclipse method> because I just want it to be over. I have been "sick" for so long and nothing has worked and I just want this to all be over. Everyone else would be better off and I have been hospitalized seven times in four years. I just want it to be over. I don't know what to do anymore. My life is pointless. Someone please help. Anything will help. I have no one to talk to. Thank you for listening.