I've struggled with depression and cutting now for over 8 years without anyone ever finding out and this past year everything has just been unbareable. I've had suicidal thoughts before but now its the only thing i can think about. I want to kill myself so bad but at the same time part of me wants to reach out for help. Ive never reached out before so I dont know how to even begin to try and go to someone about this. It gets worse every day and i just dont know what to do.