I have an interesting story as to why I have been suicidal these past few months. I developed drug induced psychosis from smoking pot this past year. Thanks to some medication I was able to get out of it but the medication did not leave me the same. It left me with 50 extra pounds and a horrible state of depression. It has cast a cloud over my life where I see no joy in anything and everything is pointless. I have 2-6 more months before the medication gets out of my system but I just can't take it anymore!! I'm going insane with this feeling of depression and I feel trapped. Everyone tells me its just a matter of time before things get better but I have lost all hope that it will. I want to <mod edit- method>but I have heard that it doesn't always work and I couldn't even imagine having to deal with life with brain damage. I've tried other forms of suicide but none of them have worked. As I said in the title of this post, I just don't know what to do anymore and I'm crying all the time. Help.