Last night was the closet i've been to an actual attempt. Ive always been suicidal i guess or at least thought how it would be so much better if i wasnt here anymore. last night though i even scared myself i took one pill then another then three. It wasnt enough to kill me but it knocked me out for awhile. i don't know what to do anymore and i dont have anyone to talk to. i wish people would stop telling me that i shouldn't feel this way because that just makes it worse.