I dont know what more I can do. No matter how hard I try I always end up failing. I try to be good friend and all my friends end up leaving. All I feel like is that I am alone and I dont want to keep suffering. I dont want to keep crying myself to bed at night. I dont want to keep wondering if this feeling is going to change. I have been feeling like this for the last two years. I use to be happy all the time and now it seems like i am never happy anymore. I just want to stop feeling like this. I just wish that i could just disappear or just fall asleep and never wake up.