I just feel so terrible all of the time. It just feels like my mind isn't there anymore. I'm always severely depressed, but I think that it's more than just depression. I just don't know what to do. I wouldn't think that my mind would be so seriously damaged from just getting stressed out. Nobody seems to be able to help me and it's just more than I can deal with. I always feel so overwhelmed because I can no longer see the difference between myself and other people. I always used to be really sharp, but I'm not anymore and I just can't understand why when so many things inside of my brain are working flawlessly. I always feel so confused. I know that they say that suicide is never the answer but this thing is really bad for me and I suffer so much. Not to mention that I've tried getting help, but it just seems that there is nothing that can be done for me. I can't keep going back to the hospital and there is nothing that they could do anyway besides give me more meds and I've already been on every med on the planet practically. I just don't know what I'm going to do. I need help so badly but it seems that there is nothing that they can do for me. I just want this thing to go away because I just can't deal with it anymore. I just want to die so badly to make it go away. I can't understand why something so terrible had to happen to me. I was doing fine, then all of a sudden I wasn't. I feel so deeply disturbed and deeply depressed over this thing. I don't understand why society frowns so much on suicide when sometimes there is no other solution.