It's been a really long time since I've posted on this forum, almost five years. I first posted on here when I was 13, I attempted suicide at 14, got healthier from 15-18, I'm now 19 but I feel like a kid again. I just got rejected from a job that really really mattered to me, and I feel so hopeless. I'm an actor and it feels like the entire world is telling me to quit. Which would be fine if i had any other skills, if i were good at ANYTHING else, but I'm not. I don't know what I am if I'm not an actor, but I'm clearly not talented enough to do it for a living, so I might as well kill myself and get it over with. I know, I'm being a drama queen, I just feel so utterly lost and alone. I moved to a new city about 5 months ago and know almost no one, so I don't have much of a support system. I got drunk tonight and just kept typing in the notes app on my phone, "I want to kill myself, i want to kill myself, I want to kill myself." Does anyone else feel lost? Does anyone else feel useless? Does anyone else feel talentless and directionless like me?