I feel so ashamed thinking about ending my life. I'm really struggling and if I could just take a pill right now and not wake up. I've lost someone I really care about and love after they ended the relationship and I can't see a way forward or stop feeling like this. It feels like I have a heavy weight on my chest the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed, I can't think at all to make decisions or see an end to this. I don't have many people I can talk to and the lonely feelings are overwhelming.