I don't know what to do

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by detritan, Oct 22, 2007.

  1. detritan

    detritan New Member

    To start, I am 24 and I am schizophrenic. I've tried to kill myself multiple times. I finally thought that I was better, without being in hospital for about 4 years. I hate going to hospital, so this was a good thing. Over the past 8 or so months I've slowly begun to get worse(at least in my eyes). I got down later in the day, but it wasn't too bad. Now, though, it's getting really bad that i am cutting again and thinking about suicide. I talked to my social worker last week, and she kept focusing on my recent job loss(I only had it for 6 weeks). I dont care about that, yet she kept going back to it, when I had other things making me down, not that stupid job. So I made a special appointment with my psychiatrist. So I see him today, and he says that as far as he can tell, I'm better than I was 6 months ago, and better than 6 months before that and so on. He doesn't want to change anything. So now I don't know who to go to, one day it'll just get to be too much, and that'll be it for me.