I'm not sure if I am in the right place. I feel overwhelmed by life right now. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to tell my family or friends. I just feel like, I don't want to die, but that I don't have any other options. It's like, I try to come up with solutions in my head and I can't find one. I just went through years of a bad marriage, a bad divorce, leaving my young child in a foreign country because he was not allowed to leave with me, a new job, not able to lose anymore weight, feelings of guilt, worthlessness, my mom died last month, my child is visiting and my fiancee can't get along with him because all he sees is the child's father, my fiancee is jealous of the child, my child is having trouble adapting to life in the states (he's on a visit till August, then I will only be able to see him in the summer and a few holidays), money is tight. I don't understand. I have always been a bit dysthmic and been treated for panic and depression before. Years of depression following the murder of my best friend. I'm sitting at a point where I just hurt. And I feel like I'm going to lose my son (who essentially I have lost to his father) and I'm going to lose my fiancee. I don't know what to do. I just don't.