I feel as though my life is falling apart. I thought I was doing things that would help me but everything has gone terribly wrong. I have applied to uni, re-established contact with some old friends and I have tried - God have I tried - to think optimistically about my future. I just can't take it anymore. People do NOT take depression seriously. Mental illness is stigmatised and people are made to feel like shit because they are not well or able to do what other people do. People who haven't been through depression are so ignorant. I can't stand the clichéd responses or the assumptions that people make e.g., "all it takes is willpower", "you can choose to get better", "if you do this or that, you will feel great (like me!)"... "Stop having a pity party", "why don't you think about someone else for a change", "if you were going to kill yourself, you would have done it by now". I witness people saying stuff like this to seriously ill people. I can't stand it! Do we need a tumour the size of a grape fruit to be taken seriously? People think that, because they can't see anything to indicate someone has depression, that they have a right to put people down or to ignore them completely. I honestly don't know what to do. There is nothing I can do. I'm just stuck in this hellhole and I don't see a way forward. I hurt everyday and it's all too much. If I could get better by doing what everyone suggests then I would have been well months ago. I have tried just about everything there is to try. I wouldn't be here if I wasn't trying. I just don't know how much more of this I can take.