I dont know what to do

[wastedmylife]

I am not suicidal but I just cant take this life anymore, I have had so many horrible traumatic things happen to me in my life it is unbelievable, I would really like to talk to a psychologist but they are all bastards who first words are "Do you have insurance" when I try to rely on the social services they say they are all booked for a year and when I call all these low cost places they are horrible and are basically christian charities who arent that cheap and I dont really trust them as I am an Atheist and I dont feel they help

USA really is a fucked up country, you people who live abroad in decent socialist countries are very lucky, if you get behind the ball in the USA your life is basically over as mine is over, I really looked for help a few months ago when I started going crazy but there was no help to be had

I just cant believe what my life has come to, the fluke injuries that have happened, it is almost unreal, I cant believe my life, most people would probably kill themselves in my position but because I am a strong fighter I keep going on

I just cant believe this life, I have no friends or family, basically nothing, I try to reach out for help but there is no help to be had

 

[wastedmylife]

But ultimatley I think we are alone in this world, I knew this 3 years ago when I started achieving peace in my life and this horribly traumatic thing happened and I have been spiriling down hill since then

What will a psychologist do? Do they even care, I have to face this life on my own no matter what is wrong with me, I cant bare the thought to face this life on my own, I really dont want to kill myself, but it is almost unreal my life the things that have happened and the shape I am in, I am to scared to kill myself but I dont know

It is truly unreal my life a fluke thing happened 3 years ago and I have been killing myself since then

 

[VengeanceDNS]

contact the samaritans google them. on phone they were crap for me but they allow you to begin talking which is a big help. email them please.

 

[Anime-Zodiac]

There has to be some one professional who can direct you in the right direction, whether it's a doctor or therapist. You got to keep looking and trying.