I can't go back to college because I haven't been for about a month. Everyone there is doubting I'll ever come back and they all think I'm a huge wasteman or something. My ex is there and she hates my guts- I'll lose all my friends to her as well. My parents are going to kick me out if I don't go back, despite the fact I got a job like they told me to. I'm also behind on all my college work, it'll take loads of hard effort to catch up, something I just can't do. Worst of all, I need to be drunk or high to feel normal these days. I can't face anyone without something inside me, how can I possibly deal with all the people at college? I can't do it, any of it. But I'll be homeless if I don't, my parents don't have to legally keep me anymore. I don't know what to do.