Hey hey, I'm kind of new here, but desperately need help on what to do. May last year I met a wonderful guy. He seemed genuine, nice, kind, not at all pervy and very sweet. He told me he was falling for me and we were pretty much "together". It was a net relation, and we weren't properly dating because he disliked net relations as they often give problems. As time went on though we saw and referred to eachother as "girlfriend" and "boyfriend". We planned a future, how many kids, weddings, life, etc. He lives in another country not so far away and planned to move to where I live anyway, and he arranged to visit here in April (this April). Last November I found out he was cheating on me the whole time, but I took him back. We argued for months on end, with short breaks inbetween where it was kind of like old times, then just last weekend I find out he cheated on me with not one, but four other girls. He was even engaged to one of them. It also turns out he isn't the person I thought, he's a dirty pervert who had role play oral sex with a 14 year old when he's 19 himself. He claims to love me, and he never felt a thing for them, but I don't know what to do. I love him and without him life isn't worth living. He wants me to stay with him, says that I can check up on him all the time with Remote Assistance, knowing his passwords, etc., but due the amount of lies he's told (he denied the cheating over and over for the past 5 months) I don't think I can risk being hurt by him again. So you see. I can stay with him and run the very high risk of being hurt again, and being right back where I am now, or leave him for good. Both options of which eventually lead me to wanting to die. I don't look when I cross the roads anymore, I don't care if I mess my future up by doing crap in my exams, I just want someone to come along and stab me so it can all be over with. On top of this, I have hardly any friends. Those I do have only ever go on about themselves, or just don't want to know or give me the time of day or even just basically tell me to leave him, when it's not as simple as that, nor is it going to help in any way. What on earth am I supposed to do?