I have a boyfriend, Zach; we've been together for a little over two years (since Dec 11, 2006). I'm 22 (almost 23) and he just turned 19 this past December. I'm so much in-love with him, I've never felt this way about anyone before and I don't get close to anyone hardly ever (esp in person). Our relationship is very rocky.. he works allllll the time (mechanic) and we hardly ever see eachother. When we do see eachother is when he gets off work, most of the time around 10 at night, and I go over his house (he still lives with his parents, as do I) and all we do is watch tv and go to sleep, wake up the next morning and do it all over again. It's even that way on the weekends. Actually, I see him more on weekdays than weekends; on weekends, he stays at the shop til, sometimes, around 3 or 4 in the morning then doesn't wake up on Sunday til aruond 2 or 3 in the afternoon and goes right back up to the shop. His friends are up there with him all the time and they see him a hell of a lot more than I get to see him (I don't drive so I can't drive up there myself). When I'm actually with him at his house late at night, I try to talk to him. He tells me hes busy even though all hes doing is looking through his car mags or watching tv or showering. He doesn't even call or text me on his own unless it's to tell me hes on his way home or he's going to bed. He never says 'I love you' first or tells me he misses me. He calls me retarded and says I'm worthless and useless all the time (since I don't have a job, no money and no car even though he knows the situation I'm in - long story). It seems like he doesn't even wanna be with me or only wants to be with me for sex or just to say he has a girlfriend. Whenever I say that to him, even in a nice way, he gets pissed off at me. The only time he really talks to me, as in an actual conversation, is when it's about him or his cars or work. Anything other than that, he gives really short, one-word answers or barely even says a sentance. Don't get me wrong, we do have good times though, it's just very rare that we do. Every single time I try to talk to him about us, about this relationship, he gets really quiet or he ignores it. I don't know what to make of it all. In the past, he's talked to me about it, very little, and he's said he doesn't know what to do. I can't understand any of it though. Is he tired of me? He tells me he wants to be with me but is he confused and really doesn't know? He tells me I think too much about it but I really don't think I do, I only go off of what's going on, or lack thereof, in our relationship. I don't understand him. I don't understand this relationship at all and every single day I feel like we're drifting more and more apart. I could handle this a lot better if I wasn't so much in-love with him. If I didn't love him soooo much, it would be a lot easier to break it off and move on but I can't. I fucking can't and I don't know what to do! I feel so sick to my stomach again.