i don't know what to do.

[whiskeylullaby]

fuck it all. i know none of you know me and i dont expect anyone to answer or care i just need to rant because typing keeps my hands busy and i'm scared if i stop writing i will si more and i've already fucking bled all over the place or finally just fucking put myself out of my misery and take the drugs i have next to me. i'm such a waste of space. how pathetic am i? i was watching a movie earlier and started crying because it was supposed to be one of those chick flicks where everyone is happy in the end and all i could think of is that i will never have that, i don't deserve it. i'm such a fuck up. i am getting what i deserve. whatever thats how my life is. i'm so fucking sick of everything. to whoever is reading this, i'm sorry i wasted your time. i'm sick of crying. i'm tired of being numb and hurting so mmuch at the same time. i don't know.

 

[jameslyons]

Hi

Don't' stop typing. My name is James and I SI too. I'm glad you're taking steps to prevent any more damage. Why not keep writing?

Also, why not go up to your freezer, take out an ice cube then hold it in your hand. It'll really help.

jaems.

 

[Grant]

hi coseette,

I'm reaaaaalllyyy sorry you're feeling this way

If you ever need anyone to talk to, you can always message me.

Please try not to do anything you'll regret

sincerly,
Grant

 

[justafool]

Nobody thinks you are a waste of space. Chances are that a total stranger, meeting you for the first time, would find things to really like about you.

So give yourself the credit that a complete stranger would.

 

[Beautiful Disaster]

aww dear :hug:

 

[gentlelady]

Welcome to the forum cosette. i am sorry you are feeling this way. You will find that people do care about one another here. I hope you find some relief while here with us. :hug:

 

[Petal]

Hello Cosette

Welcome to SF.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so low.You aren't a waste of space.I can relate to how you feel sad when you see everyone else happy. You just have to concentrate on yourself and building up your confidence. Would you like to tell us more about yourself? Keep talking if it helps, stay safe xx

I'm always here if you'd like to chat

 

[whiskeylullaby]

thank you to everyone who tried to help. coming to this forum was kind of a last ditch effort to quiet the voices in my head telling me to do what i know i should. i just don't think i can do this anymore. i'm tired of pretending to be ok. nothing i do seems to help, not the meds, the therapy, the hospital stay. i don't know how things came to this. i've made up my mind. i just hope i have the courage to do it.