I have no one to talk to about whats going on with me...no one who cares to listen anyway...all i do when DH is at work is cry, take meds to not "feel" but they dont work so i take more thinking they will make things go away. They never do..if i talk to my husband about how I feel he will just say im stresssed, get some rest ect. Thats not it... Two months ago i tried to die, it didnt work, not enough of the wrong kind of med the nurse said as he was pumping my stomach, i was in a "nut house" for two weeks and get on things that would help stabelize my moods...well it didnt work, my doc here took me off of them yet asks me if ive made an appt to "talk to someone" HELL no ive not why? Im only just another person to them... I have alot of health problems, some that cause me alot of pain, im sooooo sick of hurting all the time, im so sick of not being able to be a "normal" mommy to my 3 year old little girl and not being able to chase her around and play...its not fair for her to have me as a mother. I have a mother who i call but only wants to talk about herself and her life and i wouldnt trust her with MY info anyway the liar. I just feel so alone. always. Why didnt it work the first time, why cant I do it now...Im scared but not scared....just stupid and alone...im sorry my first post is a whiny one but its just me right now. I also miss my son so much and no no matter how i leave this world he will be there for me. he was stillborn almost 5 years ago and the pain isnt any better. Like he left us yesterday.