I don't even know why I'm really typing this, other than I don't know what else to do right now. I always thought that suicide was just something that I would think about but never actually do, but I really can't take this anymore. I can't stop crying, and I'm not even a person that usually gets emotional. I don't know what to say. I just want to sleep all the time. There are a whole bunch of pills in the next room. I don't want to ruin my mom's life. I don't know what to do, but it feels like I just can't deal with the shit in my head anymore.