I'm laying here with my laptop in my bed listening to shortstack, and nothing has changed. I'm still alone with no future. I stay up late at night and sleep all day. I met this girl through the internet but she is in Belarussia. How am I going to see her? I'm in Australia. I just can't afford her ticket and she would have no-where to stay. It's so depressing. I haven't been eating to well. And drinking. I'm getting desperate and I can't cope. That comfortable feeling of death is still with me.